Changing Body

I have been taking birth control for about 2 months now I believe. It's been awful. My body shape has fully regained the hourglass figure (this is probably the worst thing to me), I have lost a significant amount of strength, and my emotions are completely out of control. For the most part, I've been handling these things okay. I know my hourglass will eventually go away again (even if I have to liposuction it off) and my strength will return with my use of testosterone. It's made me really unhappy, but I'm bearing it until I can get my eggs taken out. Nothing so far has been TOO bad. It wasn't until about last week or so when I noticed two lumps on my chest, both on either side of my chest, close to my top surgery scars. They are sore to the touch, and often hurt when I stretch my hands above my head.

I notified the nurse at Boston IVF, who instructed me to seek medical attention from my doctor. I don't believe they have ever had a case like me before, and I think this is a learning experience for the both of us.

So I met with my PCP, she's awesome. She's been up to date about my life for almost a year and a half, I believe. She's amazingly respectful and always asks questions about terms and references so she doesn't offend me. I took my shirt off and she complimented my scars and said that Dr. Medalie did a beautiful job. She felt the lumps in/on my chest, and she believes that they are from the birth control pill I've been taking. "Gynecomastia" is what she called it. Or AKA, breast enlargement. So now, along with all of my other bullshit, I get to worry about my breasts coming back (to a certain degree). Good thing for me that my insurance company covers top surgery, because if I need to have it revised, it will be out of their pocket, not mine. It's their fault anyways, they're making me wait for an answer while I take the birth control that I need to take.

I hope hope hope that this train gets moving soon and that my eggs will come out in July. I had to move my date up again because of how unresponsive my insurance company is being. Meanwhile, Johns Hopkins is also waiting for them to say whether or not they will cover my bottom surgery while the time ticks away towards my 6 visit expiration date.